Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Stress
It's finally my off day again but this time round,
I'm not that happy as before...
Though I'm really looking forward to my this
only off day, but I'm really feeling very super
stress staying at home, even after coming back
from shopping with a-jiu...
The only happy thing I have today was shopping
with a-jiu and have got the things and stuff I
wanted...
Staying at home just sucks when your mum always
ask money from you, scold you useless everytime
even if you are chatting with friends over the phone...
Don't even know what she wants...
Is she trying to embarrass you in front of your friends
or what?
I feel so stress staying at home, seriously...
If I'm given a chance, I will bring maomao
out of the house with me since they don't
even care for him at all... His report book
needed parents to go collect but they just
insist of me going to collect it...
Then this time round issue of quarreling is:
accuse me for not telling her that I'm
1] not coming back home
2] not eating at home
3] being rude to her on the phone when she didn't
even call
4] not accompanying them on Sundays when I'm still
have to work on Sundays... What got time???
5] is with yan when I'm not even going out with her
I really can't stand them especially my mum anymore
when she always like to use dad as shield to say he
always ask... And after she knew that she's in wrong,
she will never apologised and change the topic that
'I thought you say...'
And the big thing was she always like to assume
that I'm with who and who... What the hack is this...
I really feel so stress staying at home...
Everyday I need alot of time to turn and toss before
I can really fall asleep plus I'm easily being awake
by any noise nowadays...
Really sucks sia this feeling...
Blogged By Sabrina
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Sad
Had receive a super sad sms today
It's from Yai Family de Jiu Jiu...
He will be officially terminated by
MBS starting from tml coz of rejection
from CRA license...
He said he will still try to appeal
but the chances are very slim...
Haiz...
14 years already, he has changed,
how come they don't even give him a
chance???
Think yellow ribbon thingy wasn't real
still say it's for people who changed
and had really start anew, hoping
others will give them a chance...
Really was BULL SHIT...
Anyway...
3 days of rest finally ends...
I will be startin a new week of work
tml graveyard shift -_-'''
So fast rest days just fly away like this
and am here starting to look forward for
the next off day already...
But first is to look forward to going
dear dear's house... haha...
Oh right... as you can see....
I've changed a new blogskin so to light up
my feelings abit...[though it actually din help]
Am going to change abit of here and there
and everywhere very soon... haha...
Oh ya... another thing was about family
matters... Regarding: sis and mum plus $$$
Haiz... It's all the money issues again...
Mum kept calculating and deciding on our salary,
Sis not very satisfied with it and neither do I,
so we can only just quarrel sometimes...
End up, today sis is telling me that she don't
feel like giving mum a single penny anymore -_-'''
Mum here, was wondering why sis wasn't at home
everytime... sis just said i don't want to be at
home coz mum is naggy and says I'm also the same
but just working as an excuse -_-''' Ya, true
but i'm still at home all the time coz stay home
can sleep haha...
Haiz... really don't know what to say...
Blogged By Sabrina
Monday, May 17, 2010
Contracts
Now I just really hates contract.
Coz of some stupid contract thingy,
it just really ties me down and make
me unable to fly high...
I really hope that the bonding contract
end very soon enough coz I no longer
can stand the stress in work...
Pressure...
Stress...
Dealing...
Customers Service...
Paying...
Sleeping...
Working...
These are all the things I'm doing right
now and as you can see, I don't have time
for myself at all...
Outsiders may see that it's a good job...
But it's not, it's sucks...
Though we see it as a 8 hours short job
but in fact, we delicate our lives in...
No time at all...
What you do everyday was...
Sleep...
Eat...
Work...
and it's everyday...
Forced to work OT coz nobody is taking over...
Bad welfare, bad support from company and so on...
Argh....
I want to run away...
Can someone help me?
Can someone tell me what should I do now?
Blogged By Sabrina
Monday, May 10, 2010
Bad
Dear dear was so bad yesterday...
Overslept and didn't come to
fetch me...
It's the worst thing ever that
I still gotta squeeze in the bus
when it's already full...
I felt so sad and had cried...
Dear dear woke up at 10 plus,
and had called me immediately...
I ignored his first few calls
and answer only the 6th times
of his calls...
He felt so bad about overslept,
and apologised to me...
Hmmm... I'm so angry with him...
But still forgave him coz I know
he didn't do it on purpose...
Anyway...
I had my only off today for this
week... Sian...
Gotta work for the next six days
before I got my off day again...
So sick and tired of the job...
More and more no motivations...
Haiz...
Hmmm...
Next month is my dear dear's bdae...
I wonder what should I get for him...
Headache sia...
Especially with this job...
Can't even celebrate with him even if
it's a Saturday...
What to do???
Blogged By Sabrina
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Stops
If only time can stop for
this very moment for me to
think wise, what would I be
thinking of???
I start to wonder if I really
make a wise choice to work in
this tiring industry? Is this
really what I choose to live?
Then what if it's a no, what
should I do next? I really hope
tha time can just stop at this
very moment for me to really
take a good rest...
Feeling so tiring after a harsh
week for everyone of us...
My bones would all in great pain,
mind can't really work nor think
well... Now, I'm totally lost...
I've heard that alot of ppl had
resigned from the company, out
looking for a better and comfortable
job... Should I join them? or Should
I just stay till the bonus was out?
Had visit my ex-colleague at NTUC Media
today... Am really happy to see them
again... After telling them the inside
of the story from this industry, what
they can recommend is if I can, stay
till the bonus is out then leave.
Or else everything was just a waste
if I just leave like that...
Hmmm...
Think they are really right...
After that then think of what should
I want to do next coz at least I got
the money to go study whatever I want.
But how well can I continue? I really
don't know... Should try to hang on...
Blogged By Sabrina
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Sick again
I'm really very sick of going to
see the doctor again... so sian...
The medicine was like part of my
life already and it's my 6th times
to go see doctor this year, so scary.
Anyway...
Think we really have overwork in this
opening already. Off day for us was
like heaven and everyone of us just
slept the whole full day like we didn't
want to wake up at all..
Hmmm... think i'm quite blur with the
contract I've signed coz I don't see
a 6 months bonding contract inside...
It's really weird...
No matter...
I've start to plan some future things
right now...
I'm planning to go take a Diploma in
either accounts, marketing or
early childhood...
But I think I preferred early childhood
coz I really like teaching and was having
great fun with it... haha...
hmmm... Jia You!!!
Blogged By Sabrina
