Monday, June 28, 2010
Neglected
I felt so neglected and lonely...
Coz dear dear is sick and he doesn't really
feel like talking, doing anything but
just sleeping and sleeping...
I understand that being sick, the mood
was really sucks and I just can't help it
but just sit aside and watch or do my things...
He doesn't have the enough energy for me
and it makes me feel lonely...
Now I was worried if he's the one for me...
Coz I suddenly feel so neglected by him and
have the loneliness in me...
He's always very busy for everything...
His care spread all over everywhere,
which made me jealous sometimes...
I don't know why I had all these feelings,
and the worst of all is I feel that he has
changed to I don't even know how to describe,
the only thing is he's different to what he's
like before... *So confused*
Anyway...
Dear dear finally applied for MC for work
today and also went to see doctor...
Doctor gave him medicine plus two days MC...
But dear dear decide to go back to work tomorrow
and only use one day of the MC that's given...
Headache... Now I don't understand why he don't
take one more day of rest coz he hardly get
some rest...
Hmmm...
Felt so happy to work in the morning
shift actually coz time really flies but it's
really tiring... But the schedule for next week
isn't out yet, don't know why... Sian...
There's this dealer super funny de lor...
Call him to take him as one of my 'BF Category'
and ask me to consider him too...
Kept asking me if I got boyfriend, and ask for
my mobile number... Didn't want to give therefore
he gave me his facebook name and ask me to add him...
-_-''' *faint*
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Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Argh
Argh...
Legs are cramping and aching...
Eyes and mind are so tired and sleepy...
Morning shift are indeed super tiring
especially the night before you still
can't sleep and was thinking about the
route to go work and what time should you
wake up so that you won't be late...
Haiz...
So really tired....
What the hack is this???
Today is the grand opening of MBS,
but it makes no difference to me coz I
still gotta work and it doesn't really
affect the casino much coz I'm in the
morning shift where there's not much ppl...
Hmmm....
I really hope October faster come...
So that I will know what to do next and see
what decision have I made...
Haiz...
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Monday, June 21, 2010
M.C.
Here I am on MC again... haiz...
Don't know it's the N times I'm on MC le...
Quite sick about it also...
Hmmm...
Stupid yap had made me scare and embarrass...
Ask me if I'm single will I choose Andy as my
boyfriend or not... *faint*
To be frank...
I really don't know...
But I only know that I got the one and only
dear dear in my life and that's ...
Hehe... My love...
Plus this yap don't know how to say him,
still go ask Andy if he's interested in me...
What is this man??? Going to faint le....
Ai yo... We are kor kor and mei mei relation lor...
Haha...
Dear dear's gonna be jealous if he knows this...
Haha...
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Morning Shifts
Had changed to morning shift starting from
last Friday... Time pass quite fast for morning
but am super tired coz gotta wake up super
early de...
Hmmm...
But still not bad coz at least morning shift I can
celebrate birthday with dear dear after my work
plus still got time to prepare surprise for him...
Super happy, nervous and excited de...
I don't know why but maybe because it's my first
time celebrating birthday with dear dear ba... haha...
See...
These are all our memories and the surprises I've
given him... Especially the delicious and yummy
durian cake and the super D.I.Y present I've made...
Hehe... So happy...
Oh ya...
Dear dear had came to my house to celebrate
father's day with papa... haha...
Dear dear so cute and had made mama super pai say
coz after the dinner, he helped mama washed all
the dishes and help mama clear the table...
Wahahaha...
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Thursday, June 17, 2010
Love?!
These few days I'm feeling quite unsecure de
and the worst part is I don't even know why...
It's like dear dear suddenly had alot of mood
swing and he's so busy with work that he was
like neglecting me quite alot...
I'm feeling sad and had cried that very night
after he fetch me from Won's uncle's pub...
I don't know why that I got this feeling that
he feels that I'm quite troublesome to him
and is really too stick to him that he don't
even have his own time and enough space...
Am I really thinking too much or what???
But this feeling is really so strong that I feel
really uncomfortable. I really don't know what
he likes and what he don't likes....
He gave me and feeling that I should be more
mature and independent though I know I'm not
that independent at all... Coz I just really need
a shoulder for me to rest on when I'm feeling tired
or down...
Haiz....
So envy Won's girlfriend coz she got a really nice,
romantic and loving boy...
Won has finally ask her to marry him on last Sat,
her birthday and before she left Singapore for holiday.
So touching... How I wish I can also have that kind of
romance too...
Am I getting old? Or Asking for too much?
Recently had saw alot of my friends no matter is it,
same age, younger than me or older than me...
Had getting married, pregnant or having kids around
had made me so envy that they had settled down and
have a home for themselves...
And I'm wondering when will I be the next one...
And is he the one? Haiz.... What had happen to me?
Argh!!!
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Happy Day
Finally...
Had went Clementi K Box today...
With Yan and Maomao...
Hehe... So enjoying...
Had sang alot of songs today and
it's the first time ever that we sang
alot of English songs... Haha...
Oh ya... It's super cheap de leh...
Cost $24 for the 3 of us to sing today...
and it's super cold inside...
We are almost frozen inside... haha...
After singing, we went to the opp
Pizza Hut to have our dinner...
Had ordered large crispy thin Hawaiian,
regular curry chicken. criss cross fries
and 5 drumlets plus 3 pepsi...
Yum yum...
Maomao went home himself after dinner
but yan and I went to IMM to shop for awhile...
Hmmm. these two days aren't Yan's day coz
she's super unlucky de...
First, our stupid cupboard door dropped down
and hit her big toe, those has coz blood clog.
and today, her left eye was swollen like weirdos
after dinner... think there's something bitten her
eye that has coz insect bites kinda look...
Poor her...
Didn't go find a-jiu today think he's quite sad ba.
But then he called me to go there next Friday
so he can have money to treat me eat and give me
spend. haha... Cute cute de...
Anyway...
I hope Friday faster come so I can meet him
coz long time no see him already...
Hmmm...
MBS called me today...
The way they talk were super rude de.
Like I owe them loads of money...
Anyway... they called to ask if I want to work
on my only off day nest week which is the day I'm
meeting a-jiu... Damn...
My only off day they also want to take away and
the off day given was like after working for straight
7 days de. I'm sure I will be super tired after the
7 working days... Haiz...
Now I also don't know if I should or shouldn't work
coz I'm so tempted for the double pay... But I don't
want myself to be overwork... Argh!!!
What should I do???
Headache....
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Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Papa's Birthday Pics
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Waiting for so long
Finally my two days off is here...
Have been waiting for a very long time for
this two days off... And now... My legs aches
like hell, veins are appearing to be more
obvious, does this shows that I'm getting old?
Had also finally got the chance to do DI these
few days, but I think I won't have the chance
anymore coz I'm going to work in the morning
shift after this off days.
Hmmmm... Anyway...
Had went out with Rae, Won, Jess, Ken and Kes
for drinking session last night...
But I never stay with them all the way coz
dear dear came to pick me @ 2am as
firstly, he's very worried about me.
Secondly, coz I've gotta work today @2pm-10pm.
Haha... So he actually doesn't want me to stay
out late especially when I gotta work the next day.
And yes...
It's papa's birthday today...
Yan had bought a durian cake for him and it looks
super cute de, plus it's super tasty and full of
pure durian meat... Emmm... Yummy...
[Till now I still have the durian taste in my mouth]
See the pics in the next blog wor...
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Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Just hate it so much
I HATE HATE HATE this job, especially today...
It's not with the dealing, supervising nor
with the customers... But it's with the
management, scheduling and some DI, Sup and PM...
Had a fxxking damn day today...
It's like everything I do will kana scolding
until the last one I really can't take...
Since he knows I got a $200 cash change, does
it make a diff to wait for him to say ok before
pushing out and can't he see that the ball I spun
is going to drop? Can't he just wait till that game
is over then ask me those irritating questions?
Ass...
Really more and more hated this job already...
Was actually start to try enjoying but after today,
think I'm not already... And I'm waiting for the bond
to end ASAP...
Anyway...
I better not think about all this anymore if not
I'm gonna start stressing myself again coz I don't
wanna everyday eat pills to destress first before I
went dreaming...
And yup...
If you are wondering what I'm talking about,
Am I taking medication for stress now?
Ans: yes... I'm under stress and needs medication to
destress... Haiz... What had happened to me sia...
I'm wondering also...
Hmmm...
Yesterday dear dear had treat papa and mama to dinner
@ Boon Lay... It's to help papa celebrate birthday and
father's day de... Think they got quite alot of thing to
talk sia... Haha... Coz papa really seldom will talk alot
to those he didn't know or not very close de...
Mama more bad... In front of dear dear still say maomao
ask when am I going to get married -_-''' *gonna faint soon*
Hmmm... Dear dear's Birthday is coming soon and it's
4 days after papa's birthday... haha... So coincident...
Hmmm... Dear dear had get himself an iPhone 3GS, and
today I just found out that Aug iPhone 4G is out and it
might cost cheaper than 3GS... Haiz... But nvm la...
Only Camera diff, others are still the same...
And yes...
I'm gonna still a saving plan for myself le...
Cost I still got alot of things need to do... Hmmm...
But how should I save leh?
Can anyone teach me financial managements? Haha...
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Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Off
Yes...
Two days of off day this week...
Really just like this kind of off days...
Had do alot of things yesterday already,
feel so contented and happy... Hehe...
Had went to Expo yesterday for the Bookfair
to buy loads of stuff I wanted and the total
doesn't exceed $100... Haha... So happy...
Oh... And I went to the foodfest too...
So crowded and the food smell so nice and
delicious... Just feel like eating everything
that's sold inside... Unfortunately...
I can't coz I'm carrying loads of things on
my hand after buying things at the bookfair..
Meet Yan in the evening after coming back from
Expo to go JP continue to shop...
It's like my spending day yesterday...
So fun... But no worries... I still save some...
Hmmm...
Am super angry these few days with the pay that
MBS had given me...
Really everything just messed up like shit...
Had keep calling into ask but no one is answering it.
So damn angry... Think I gonna go HR to ask tml...
Oh yes... had went to Paiza to deal on 27 May...
It's my first time to deal at the V.VIP room...
So super nervous and super scare that what if I
let the player lose loads of money and they use
ashtray to hit me... Gosh...
But lucky...
I didn't let them lose so instead getting hitted,
I got my first tips of around $1000... So excited...
But this amount we gotta share de... Haiz...
Yes...
Saw Channel 8 actor at the casino on 31 May...
Wang Lu Jiang and Su Zhi Chen plus their friend...
Su Zhi Chen came to my Sic Bo table to gamble
and I just feel that he doesn't look as good as
in TV... Haha...
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